用心去感受的一天~

我带着沉重不安的心情去，

却带着满心喜悦回。

原本只想说对不起，

结果一切又回到原点。

一个欢乐、嬉笑的最初。

很感谢上天让我认识了好人。

这些没有城府的好人。

要我用简单的文字形容一下他们：

一个个子不高的男生，头发一直去 rebond。
一个自称文学女生的女人，平凡的面容背后蕴藏着复杂的内心世界。
一个文质彬彬的男生，话不多。

但这3个人加起来，可以说是“3个臭皮匠，胜过一个诸葛亮”。

太厉害了。

感谢大家的包容与体谅。

2010 年希望我们的友情会“无灾无难”，best friends till we old！

Mango~

《十月围城》afterthoughts

It's nearly 4am.. I'm just back from midnight movie.

I have a lot to say after watching the bodyguards and assasins.

No doubt it's a great movie. Big casts and all good actors and actress.

But really pains my heart to see people die 1 by 1.

In this movie, I like 阿四 and Zhen Zi dan's role the best.

Others I also like.

I can't believe Zhen Zi dan died! He's 叶问，his martial arts so good. How can he die? (OK.. this is irrational)

阿四 is so 讲义气。He is willing to do anything to make his master happy.

I ponder lots about 革命。

It's really cruel. I hate wars. Hate revolution. Hate seperation and loss of lives.

But I guess it's really the price of 革命。

如果我活在那个时代，我会去革命吗？

For your country, will you be willing to sacrifice?

I really admire their guts and bravery.

Good job 陈可辛。

P.S. Jacky Cheung died so fast.. scare me.

Mango~

Going out therapy for the soul~

那一天的压力解放，心灵治疗~

Post 完这个 entry, 我就真的要暂时归隐了。

In Jupiter and Myra's term: Caving

Whenever they say caving I can imagine those Flintstone characters.. haha.

well.. my title is actually very nicely phrased. In other words, that day I was a little down.

I refused to use the word "EMO" as I have the negative impression of this word.

I was just a little.. no somewhat more than a little.. DOWN.

Ok.. I shall stop emphasizing how bad my mood was that day.

Anyway, that day I asked Jupiter if he wanted to watch Sister's Keeper after his saturday's class. I seriously wanted to go out. Watch a movie, calm myself down at a cafe or something. 我知道当天我内心很复杂。As I expected, he turned down my random offer. So I went to East Coast instead. 自然治疗法。

I just felt weird that day. 那是一个别人说什么我都听不进去的一天。

为了让心灵、精神放个短假，我想暂时远离尘嚣。

Hence I started my adventure alone.. to this nice nice place where I can 吹海风，暂且把烦恼抛到九霄云外。

这样的 East Coast 你看过吗？好蓝哦。。是我照相机的关系吗?

我看到他们也在看海。这样子的天空散发出迷人的色彩，让我整个人陶醉自中。

就只想这么简单、毫无意图地看着天空和海。

很幸运的，我也看到了落日。

脑里立刻浮现出：“夕阳无限好，只是近黄昏”这美丽的诗词。

美好的东西真的很快会消失眼前，明天太阳会落下，但已不是今天看到的那个了。

小时候我和哥哥们到这里玩时和它拍了照。

幸亏它没遭到拆除或搬迁的厄运。

我重回到这里看它。它没变。

可是我长大了。

儿时的欢笑也没有了。

有的是一颗缅怀过去的心。

在沙上写了这4个字。

考试即将来临。

一切都会过去的。

我希望自己能更勇敢、更有自信。

最后把这2个重要的“成分”献给你们：

Mango~

只有一句话：除了无奈还是无奈

我们围了个圆圈。

“好，我们现在开始玩游戏了！”

音乐停了，如果那根棒传到你手里，

你就得当“猴子”。

“ 好！”

It's a small world after all.. It's a small world after all.. It's a small world..

“我啊！”

第二轮后。。。

“又是我？好吧。。。”

第三轮。。。

“怎么那么倒霉？又是我？Can't believe my luck! ”

“可以换人了吗？都不好玩的。我累了。。能不玩了吗？”

现实

感觉无形的棒一只在我手里。

这样好玩吗？

没有互动的游戏好玩吗？

“一点都不 High 的”

High 的游戏需要大家来搞气氛。

快乐的时光必须共同打造。。

当你发现你一直都坐着等棒子传到你那里，

发现“幸运”躲过了一次时，

可曾为站着当 Monkey 的朋友想一想。

为何没人帮他/她解围？

日积月累，那种感觉不好受吧。

Monkey 故名思议，是被人耍，没人看重的角色。

辛苦又谁知？

人们只会记得当下的快乐，

有谁会体会他/她为了聚会所作的一切呢？

换来的是诸多怨言、抱怨、不满。

这个工作很好当吗？

你不妨来当一下。

保证很“精彩”。

没错，每个团体都会有被动的人。

可我也不是很主动的人啊。

不可以赴约的话就不赴约咯。

难道会有人拿刀威胁你、恐吓你？

残局总要有人收拾，

有些人上了大号就会大摇大摆的走了，

可轻松。

不知道别人总要收拾“米田共”。

讨厌！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

不干了。

Mango~

这一夜，月光真的不一样。。。

徐佳莹校园演唱会之观后感~

I just settled down in front of the computer and got the feeling to blog! Cos seriously I'm very excited.. even though it's been 2 hours after the concert. Let me recount what happened just now so that when old that time I can still read about what happened today.

I had lecture as usual but today's lesson I kept laughing cos the video was very funny. It's about a performing art in China called 二人转 and got 1 video the person like doing a long rap.. he has got long breath and could say in 1 single breath, e.g. places in China, countries etc and he would do the sound similar to M1 advertisement (the toot toot one..). Very entertaining.

After that, I took shuttle bus to the bus stop I promised to meet Servbot and Jupiter. I was there early so I went to the tables there (noisy study area) to wait. Meanwhile I kept sms-ing cos today's plan was a bit random. Ended up my friend won another pair of tickets and my 2 other JC friends could join us for the concert.

And as I was sms-ing, I turned behind and saw Jupiter!!!!!!

This person was thinking of giving me a shock! Lucky I turned back and saw him. But I only saw him and no Servbot.. until I turned to my other side. Both of them wore stripes polo tee today. Never tell me if not I could wear stripes too (Club Unity!!) haha..

OK as so as usual Jupiter sat down and grumbled about his mid-term, test he did, persuading us to amei's jan concert etc.. While Servbot read his i-weekly after refilling his water and went to the toilet. Poor me has got no magazine so got to 意思意思 listen to Jupiter. :P

1000000000000000000 Years passed........

We decided to eat at a place called The Palette at my school. Servbot was quite reluctant at first but still gave in to Jupiter's persuasion.

Apparently Jupiter loves the place cos it was rather spacious. (phew.. I was quite scared at first.)

Servbot ordered fish & chips, Jupiter ordered terriyaki chicken chop and I ordered black pepper chicken chop.

Then we started our chatting session. Jupiter's dish has got this really nice nata de coco.. and I can't believe he doesn't know what nata de coco is and claims it is attap chi. 别乱认 ok..

The CREEPY part of the day comes..

I was just teasing him about the possibility of him seeing his "beloved He-who-must-not-be-named" and he was also teasing me about me seeing mine...

Just as we were leaving, that Jupiter suddenly say: “看后面”.

I was thinking what.. another shuai ge or something.

NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We saw things that must not be seen!!!

Both of our "he-who-must-not-be-named".

The funny part was I saw his and he saw mine. But I have to say that rotten egg's hair is really ugly. Really.. not I'm biased.

OK enough of rotten people and spoiling mood. (heng never affect my mood)

After that we exercised a bit cos we walked to the LT instead of taking shuttle bus.

When we reached, the queue was already quite long. (Servbot even went up to 探情报）

We were chatting and my friend appeared shortly.

We continued to chat and about 7.40pm we went in.

不久后，志勇 appeared. 徐佳莹 also appeared.

I like her hair. Very long and silky!! I just have no patience to keep long hair.

I was very excited and high the whole night.

I even recorded her voice in my MP3 player.

She sang very nice songs like 《身骑白马》、《VIP》、《一样的月光》、《喔伊细》、《失落沙洲》.

Was a little disappointed she didn't sing 《白旗》. It's a really meaningful and positive song. Tell you not to give up.

I really love her voice. Very 清亮！

After the concert ended, I went to queue for autograph quickly.

She signed for me and I got to shake hands with her.

I think I very 丢脸 loh. Cos I was so excited she was signing my album halfway I already stretched out my hand already.

I even said something I never imagined myself saying. Even LGZ I didn't say.

I must be mad. Haha.. I think she also bit stunned.. dunno.

My other friends told me I made some noise when walking down (cos I walked really fast) and looked as if I was 心虚. During the concert, they saw me mouthing the lyrics as she was singing. And said my mouth very big could see even from afar. -_-

OK.. on the bus ride back home..

Jupiter was very 烦。I complained to Servbot. Cos he kept saying how come the girl in front didn't want to sit down.. Dunno double deck can't stand meh and blocking the tv mobile etc.. cynical tongue.

Servbot was concentrating on his tv that he didn't hear me calling him.. about 4 times.

Jupiter kept laughing cos Servbot didn't really catch what we were saying.

When we were alighting, someone called JR. I thought it was Servbot's friend again. But it wasn't. And there again Jupiter and I laughed.

I dunno whether I laughed too much today or not. I hope Servbot doesn't mind me laughing. Cos sometimes my 笑点 can be quite 低。

今天真是难忘。难得 I can see JC friends and Zhui Xing 1/2 in my school.

Reiko I miss U too! (I can type out but can't say out)

Miss everybody!

Mango~

仙人掌的魅力~

在我心里，她就像仙人掌。

仙人掌的刺是天生的，刺让人难以接近，

可是一旦习惯，喜欢它的人就会很喜欢。

它也会尽量避免伤害到他人。

可是没有法子呀。

刺是与生俱来的，

是让她可以保护自己。

所以总是可以从她口中听到她不再相信文学以外的爱情之类的话。

可是人是矛盾的。

热爱文学的人怎会不被真诚的爱感动呢？

而且她又是直到死都不会忘了浪漫的人。

所以我说她是仙人掌。

因为仙人掌会开花。

当她找到喜欢她的刺的人时，

心里充满满满的爱时，

就像仙人掌开花一样。

那么的珍贵。

那人就会是护花使者。

因为花得来不易。

Mango~

爱上。。

不知道几时中了《命中》的毒。

此毒极深，需一段时间治疗也。

Anyway.. 今天的这集做到存希经过花店，

然后看到了这品种的花。

马上引起了我的注意。

因为花语是勇气。

虽然存希是很令人讨厌啦，

因为经过了这么多事情之后才知道自己真正的感觉，

才想办法挽回对方的心。

可是他还蛮浪漫的。

这我就没办法抵赖。

我想我不是不想跟随主流喜欢红玫瑰。

可是也许因为个人喜好与性格的关系，

总是不愿意和别人一样。

也许是偏见吧。

紫色是我最喜欢的颜色。

而且我是个缺乏勇气的人。

容易和这花产生共鸣。

说了这么久还没介绍花。

它和我们一样有个美丽的名字，叫琉璃苣。英文叫 borage。

欧洲人认为它能消除忧郁、予人勇气。琉璃苣含有挥发油，能平抚情绪、安定神经。

有点像 Lavender。

琉璃苣的花语:
　　

- 勇气
　　

- 文艺复兴时期的名画，常用它来装饰圣母玛利亚的外袍。被称作——勇气之泉。据说在中世纪的欧洲，当时修道院的後花园里，普遍种植琉璃苣，不仅可供盆栽、庭园栽种观赏外，主要用以治疗多种疾病，被认为是修道士的秘密法宝。

- 欧洲士兵在上战场前,总会插一支琉璃苣在酒杯里,并大声呼喝:"我是琉璃苣,我不畏惧!"用这种方法来提高士气,有助于战争的胜利。

(Source taken from Baidu)

很有性格的花，对吗？

让我们一起高喊“我不畏惧”吧！（邻居投诉后果自负）

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真的有命中注定这回事吗？

未来真的会有个人在等你吗？

真的吗？还是安慰人的话？

我选择相信。

反正相信有不会少块肉。

有些事还真的很巧。

真的很奥妙。

今天我和“瑞可”聊天时发现。

原来我们都是在同个医院出生的。

医院倒闭了。。

可是我觉得很奥妙的是我和她的生日那么接近，

可能出生时就碰到了对方也说不定。

我想我是矛盾的。

我相信命运掌握在自己手中，

却也相信世界上有股莫名的力量，

操纵着事物，

操纵着规律，

操纵着我和你。

Mango~

Inside ur heaven

This is the song which I recently fall in love with.
Since Olivia's 《如燕》can't play again, I've changed the song to this.
I think Carrie's voice is so attractive. Especially those high notes.
Of course Bo Bice version is also nice, but his is more man. haha.

Carrie Underwood

I've been down
Now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation coming around
I guess its right, it's so amazing
Everytime I see you I'm alive
You're all I've got
You lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes
I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven
When we touch, when we love
The stars light up
The wrong becomes undone
Naturally, my soul surrenders
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes
And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
And I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathing in
A soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven
When minutes turn to days and years
When mountains fall, I'll still be here
Holdin you until the day I die
And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven
I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

I think this song is romantic and hopeful. So to all my friends out there having exams, all the best!!!

Mango~

In response to e news

让我也发表一下我的愚见吧。

关于《下个星期去英国》这首歌，

起初我听的时候感觉是轻快的。

还以为两个朋友相约好要去旅行呢！

那会多好。。

没想到是这么感伤。

可是我没有像 Reiko 这么有感觉，到落泪。可是的确是好听的！

Reiko 应该是看 MV 看了很多次吧。

她观察那些微小的细节，如 叶子书签还在，可是人已变了。

有点物事人非的感觉。

人生中常常碰到这种事。

可是奇怪的是我没有哭。是我看开了吗？

还是我也变了？变得麻木？

心被厚实的外衣包裹着，

为的是不受伤？

回应 Reiko 自创文字。

我觉得我们应该还没到达这样子的境界吧。

希望日后工作了我们还能像现在这样无话不说。

有时我在想，

有些人隐藏自己，不让人知道自己内心在想什么，

是好是坏？

我只能说陈绮贞真的很有才华，很有想法。

很喜欢这张专辑。

第一首让我对她改观的歌是太阳。（cos previously tot her songs all 差不多）

很有希望的一首歌。我很喜欢这样的 soft rock。

很有力量。这会是我继《逆光》后第二首考试必听的歌。

对于《鱼》，

我也不是很了解。

可是我不会想做鱼。

特别是被饲养、被束缚在限定空间的鱼。

这样的鱼看到的世界会是很小、很局限的。

可是大海的鱼更看不到世界，看不到太阳。

海底世界是复杂、是绚烂的。

人世间是复杂、是绚烂的。

那做鱼和做人有什么差别？

当鱼真得会自由吗？

尤其现在污染的情况越来越严重，

鱼尤其是身（声）不由己的。

而且大鱼吃小鱼，这样真的好吗？

住在鱼缸的鱼也许不知道自己能被保护是幸福的。

一直觉得自己被束缚，

然后也应该会 depressed 吧。

不开心就会死。

真可怜。

鱼为什么想当人？

当人很好吗？

看到太阳就是好的吗？

不是说过“一碰就破碎的太阳”了吗？

好与不好好如何定义?

有选择的权利其实也是痛苦的。

里面的“他”/“它”是指什么？

P.S. 我最喜欢距离。

Mango~

impromptu 的星期五

我想我的 impsulve call for outings 已经变成 quite expected 了吧。

你们是不是也和我一样 addictive to Zhui Xing outings 了呢？

尽管很忙，我还是觉得必须放松身心，跟大家聚聚，心情会变得愉快许多。

反正有 Jupiter 机关枪式的笑声，真得还蛮有感染力的。

有时我笑得“天翻地覆”都不懂在笑什么。

就跟着笑。可能是很 silly 或微不足道的小事我们都能笑得很开心。

忘不了“酸”彼此的习惯。

不知为什么，和追星在一起时间会过得特别快。

好像 unicorn 长了翅膀一样。

我们总有聊不完的话题、八卦，

那份不用言语表达的默契真的让我格外珍惜。

有一天我跟 Reiko 说我不相信有一辈子的朋友。

因为我在生活中看到不少令我悲观的例子。

毕竟人与人的关系很脆弱。

需要非常多的精力去维系。

可是你们是我不会想失去的朋友。

毕竟能在面前真情流露的朋友真得挺少的。

不知为什么我会写这个 entry。

看了《一切完美2》大结局后有感而发？

哈哈。

今天无意间谈到被爱/爱人的问题。

是我的话，我会选择爱我爱的人。

这样活着才有意义。因为爱过，至少不会遗憾。

被爱的人真的是幸福的吗？

我觉得被你所爱的人爱惜才是幸福的。

单方面就像 Jupiter 说的，会令人烦感或陷入痛苦吧。

很开心 Kelly 做了她认为对的选择。

我喜欢看 happy ending。

什么是“完美”？ 真的有所谓的“完美情人”吗？

最近无意间成为了一位好姐妹的感情顾问。

她说对于感情她是理智的。

对，我要发表我的爱情观。哈哈。

Interested then carry on reading. If not 不勉强。谢谢你的耐心。

她说她要找有$ 男朋友，要驾车等。

可是我告诉她$ 不重要，不需很有钱吧，过得去就行。

她就说为什么我这么 persistent。我就说有吗？

原来对于我相信的事我还是蛮 stubborn 的。

她就说约她的男生比她矮，

我就回答：“身高不是问题”。

她说看上去很成熟。

我就说这些很重要吗？你会提出这些要求是因为你不喜欢他吧。

喜欢的话，这些差异就不会去理会了不是吗？

真爱不分语言、宗教、国界、身高、学历、家庭背景、年龄等，

可是真正有几人能做到？

然后我们察觉对方对“relationship” 的定义都不一样。

她认为女性有选择的机会，要多和异性朋友约会、谈多点恋爱，

这样才能知道谁适合你。

我则认为谈恋爱是真正确定你喜欢对方，

难道我是理想主义者？

Anyway, 大家能思考你们心里的真爱定义是什么。

Have a really nice weekend.

P.S. I wanna eat hawker food 4 next outing! vote vote. haha.

Mango~

New Blog Song

喜欢梁静茹的声音。

没有复杂的背景音乐，

更能听出歌曲所要表达的情绪，更凸显音符的美丽。

希望大家喜欢《爱情之所以为爱情》。

Mango~

Top 5 reasons for staying single

在情人节的这一天，我突然有念头想写这个 entry。haha. (not only to "clock" entries)

单身的我们，在这天莫须感到自卑、不舒服、伤感等。

我们应该开心。

Here are my Top 5 reasons why it's not bad to stay single:

1）省钱。今天在外用餐一定很贵。女生就还不错（因为男生可能请客），可是如果你是男生的话，面对种种的“情人节大餐”，口袋也会破个大洞哦！

2）可以和好朋友一起庆祝嘛！虽然可能少了浪漫情调，可是却很好玩！我保证！这是女生的 case 啦，男生我就不知道了。一群人热闹的为自由干杯！

3）对于那些不喜欢出去的人来说，情人节也许是个呆在家的好理由。可以陪陪父母啊、补充睡眠啊、catch up readings, 做自己喜欢做的事等等。

4）自由自在啊。没有责任的束缚。多好。

5）我想不到了。。对我来说，也许可以和 Reiko 一起实现“同窗”的梦想吧。先说好 hor。咱们必须有自己的私人空间。哈哈。

Note: According to shuang fei's dictionary, “同窗”means to stay together and support each other till old.

Enjoy the day!

Mango~

New Blog song

Very paiseh Reiko.. I changed the blog song le!!!

Spot how many songs are inside this blog song. haha.

All by our favourite Yanzi and zhang hui mei.

百听不厌。

Happy Valentines' Day everyone!

友情细水长流。。

Mango

七仔回忆录~

它是我的宝贝。陪了我少过一年。

今天它重获了自由。

可是也许落入了坏人手里。

尽管我为我的失责感到懊悔，

在这里还是希望能做个怀念特集。

我大概是去年4月买到这可爱的小东西。

之后它就经常成了朋友们消遣的对象。

并且无怨无悔地陪伴着我。

尤其是我伤心、失落、沮丧时，

它成了我无声的知己。







它也无意间成了追星的一分子。现在没办法逗弄它了。

应该很难找到这版的七仔了吧。

我好珍惜有它陪伴的日子。

再也没有玩偶能取代它在我心中的地位。

请与我一起怀念它吧。

Mango~

完美的一天 :)

Editor 通过 Msn 跟我说今天将会是 Mass Blogging Day again.

因为我也想赶在假期结束之前 blog 点东西。

毕竟新的一年了嘛，还没 blog 呢。

Reiko 说她很累，buay tahan，去睡了。

可是不知为什么我总是到了晚上却越来越精神？

haha.. Tat's why I also come to crap something.

今天我和追星和 Servbot 到了我引以为傲的樟宜机场 Terminal 3 参观。

一圆大家渴望旅行的美梦，松懈，顺便联络感情。

第一次不用遭受情绪起伏而来到那里。

没有亲人朋友离开，也不用迎接亲人的到来。

一颗平常心。

只是可能起初因为肚子饿而心情不好。后来就没事了。

T3 有一种独特的宁静。

一种我觉得大声嚷嚷会破坏美感的宁静。

我们走了好远，终于找到了麦当劳叔叔。

我们便坐下来企图开始 Relaxation reading.

可是怎么感觉都不够 relaxed. 我和 Reiko 疯了，读 readings.

原本想认真阅读，谁知道音乐实在太吵了。

我还记得有一首歌很乱，好像有人被怪兽追杀。

这样另类的歌就像 vivo cafe 的摇椅一样搞得我头晕。

做起 Entertainment news 一丝不苟的 ah~ bei editor 十分认真地 type entry.

Servbot 有一度自己探险去了，去了很久。害我们以为他离境了。

就如 Reiko 所说，我们又玩 Servbot亲手打造的游戏了。

很好玩呢！超没压力的！而且很好笑。

特别是我比“三国志”、Reiko 比“编曲”的时候。印象深刻。

这是我们的组名。绝对能体现我们的本性。Haha.

Jupiter, Reiko= 八卦组

Reiko, Mango= 双飞 （重出江湖）

Jupiter, Mango= Cynical

今天很幸运。赢了游戏也没迟到。

之后我们便到处寻找晚餐的下落。

走来走去，搭来搭去，我们终于找到落脚之地了！

我还去推 trolley 放 bags, 幻想一下自己刚去旅行回来。

之后的事，Reiko 也说了。

加以补充的是，我发现 Servbot 真得很喜欢吃面包。

不愧是江湖上传说的“面包弟弟”。

我和 Jupiter 觉得没味道的面包他却说好吃。

我想是因人而异吧。

P.S. 我开始想念 Jupiter 模仿大傻了。超像的。很想再听一次。

我宁愿一直听他模仿大傻也不愿听他 grumble results. haha.

接下来是今天拍的照片。很少！

被我发现的艺术品

中马票才能到那里用餐的 Crown plaza. (is it the right name?)

喜欢看喷泉的 Reiko 照的。

农历新年快到了，买年花了吗？

Dunno where did Servbot go. 追星自拍成功！

我的假期只剩下少过 24 小时！

Till we meet for 赤壁2， Take care!

Mango~

Blogging day :)

It seems like a blogging day today! There's boxing day but I never heard of blogging day! So Zhui Xing shall haf a blogging day! Which is TODAY!

So many blog entries today! I shall crap my way through so that I can contribute my part to make it Zhui Xing blogging day.

1st, let me wish all of u a happy Dong Zhi! 吃汤圆了吗？记得要吃哦！往年我都吃跟我年龄相同数字的汤圆。可是今年不行了。怎能吃得了21粒？！haha.. This year didn't manage to help my mum make rice balls. Cos she's early bird and never wake me up to help her ytd.

I woke up at 7 am today. Cos my mum said I muz help my brother to move things. Then I dragged myself out of bed, hurried to brush teeth and changed. In e end the lorry couldn't sit so many people so I juz waved goodbye to my brother and sis-in-law at my house downstairs. Then I dropped back to sleep again.

While I'm typing this blog entry, I heard Reiko's horrible voice. She's very noisy. Cos we're on msn and she's talking to me. I can't talk back cos this old comp has got no mic. She keeps singing Fang Da Tong's songs to me. His new song is really nice.

But I prefer e 1st version of "You are so beautiful".. however some time later, I'll be bored with the song. Too slow for me.

It's going to be dinner time soon! Time really flies.

Totally enjoyed the outing yesterday. Jupiter was really over-hyper.

Already looking 4ward to part 2 celebration. It's going to be packed with fun-filled activities! Movie, Jupiter award, eating and Servbot's games. 真是佩服你们有那么用不完的精力准备这些游戏与颁奖典礼！

Yo yo yo.. cya all real soon!

Commercial Break: London Chocolate Roll... London Chocolate Roll.

For full version, can ask Servbot for the youtube link. haha.

Mango~

My short short entry about my short short break

Hi my dearest frenz,

It's been so long since we last met. I forgot how long. But I really do miss u guys. So what haf I been doing 4 e past 2 days? Here's my short short update (good for u cos no need sms or talk thru phone n u can be updated with my life!)

1st congrats to servbot 4 completing exams! 2nd, congrats to Jupiter n Reiko. Cos only 1/2 more papers to go 4 u both. Hang on! The misery is ending!

Ok.. so thurs which is 1 day after my exams, I went to Chinatown to test try food with my JC pal. Cos it's going to be her 21st and she wants an old-school style breakfast bdae celebration. And tada! The 2 adventurous gals went to a dim sum restaurant "Red Star", which is situated at a really ulu place. Inside HDB housing and it's a 7th storey. So different experience!

This pic is shows some of the dim sum we ordered. We ordered siew mai, har gao, prawn chee cheong fun, century egg porridge with unique dried oyster taste, char siew bao, toufu skin wrapped with meat and gravy, "golden pillow" (wanton deep-fried till crispy golden brown), mango pudding. 加上清香的普耳茶，没话说！

Yup think that's all. But it was very filling I can guarantee. Maybe cos we didn't eat breakfast and walked very long till we reached.

See the 馅料饱满的虾饺！

Miss dim sum lover

Can picture how much we ate?

My favourite Mango Pudding :)

Ok I think we ate quite a lot. Then one auntie who worked there came and asked: "wa u all can eat so much?" Then the auntie who came with the bill said: "no la, not a lot. Only $xxxx".

Gosh.. a bit paiseh. But the food is so nice can?! How to resist?

Ok then we shopped around. Went to beads shop and at first I didn't buy anything. In e end I bought some beads to try DIY. Cos I fell in love with these beads.




Nice? I made myself one. 我不手巧，successful after the 2nd attempt. If I were a Nonya, die la!

Ok then I suggested it was still early, so we walked to Clarke Quay. Btw, got 1 super irritating auntie. Approached me to go 修眉。I dun go 4 such thing one. And even if I want, her attitude really pissed me off totally! When I rejected her, she pulled my hand and said : "你的眉毛很丑”。Trying to use the opposite approach huh.. but 我不吃这套！And I walked off so angrily and inside saying : “丑又管你x事”！

But after nagging a while, we reached Central. Got only 1 xmas tree but got live performance. The man really could sing well. Very soothing. I like the man who played Cello. Then we walked to a supermart that sell Jap products.

Cute right?

That ends my review of thurs. Then today is a mixed feelings day. Why?

I woke up juz in time to rush for the FYP talk. Really got me stressed up. Now can slack for few days, but after that muz start to research alr. They change their mind again. Now is not allocate us the question to do, but WE muz think of our own question. Tough part is, ur question will compete with others who r also fighting ur no 1 choice instructor with u! The teachers will select the student who will be under them by seeing the question. Stress rite?

The question will also subject to change. Yr 4 Sem 1 start doing. Haiz. Why time flies one? I only think I'm Yr 2 and my knowledge not deep enough to write a thesis can?? I got 危机意识。But what can I do? Muz remain positive and alr halfway to graduation le, I can't give up last min. If not I waste my parents' $ and my own time loh. I can do it!

The submission date is in Jan. So fast rite? So this hol I muz juggle well btwn fun and work. So pitiful.. can't even enjoy. haha. (苦笑）

So Jupiter and Reiko, juz hang on. Cos u all r not alone.

This xmas if I'm allowed to make a wish 4 the presents I hope to receive, I will wish 4 motivational, encouraging presents. Things tt can make me determine, let me stay positive, and give me strength to cope with what I need to do. E.g. Friendship bookmark, sweet personal messages. Cos during exams, I kept reading the messages u wrote in my bdae card. I am a person who needs assurance one. haha.

After the talk, I went to ECP with 2 of my uni frenz. I realised not many went 4 the outing. Haiz. But when we busy with our work le, then graduate, then nth 4 us to remember alr. So I think it's important to go 4 such faculty gathering sometimes.

The fun part was, I managed to cycle!! They were so nice to take turns and "drive" me. haha. The starting part was hard cos the bicycle couldn't stable itself, but after few tries, we managed to get the momentum! Hee!

Another fren was kind to teach me. But I went to cycle the double one cos my fren wanted back her single bike back. Haha. In the end still nv grasp it.

I love the wind blowing!

When we left the place it was so late. Luckily we managed to catch the last train after taking bus to Dhoby station. 1st time heard the announcement of the last train. Muz be cos the fish ball noodle uncle took so long to cook our food. wahaha.

Oh ya. We loitered at the shopping centre and I bought a little miss sunshine tee plus this cute cushion. Can de-stress!!

Mr Bump

And I declare here: Bankruptcy of Mango. Seriously need financial aid. Anyone who knows of job lobang pls contact her. (though I needa work on my thesis brainstorming)

All the best. CYA soon.

Mango~

我的电脑要进ICU了

我的宝贝又生病了。

上次是中了病毒，现在应该是因为老了，

螺丝不耐了。脱臼。太可怜了。

非常同情它。

现在screen 那里有fracture呢。

我希望能让它尽早求医，让它恢复活泼的一面。

我似乎跟 IT 有仇。

刚才我房间电视的按钮竟然会给我按到跑了进去。

幸亏爸爸帮我把它“敲”出来。

This entry 一点都不emo.

因为我想说我的电脑现在不完美，

可是它会和我一样充满的斗志。

不会放弃。

会继续的操作，继续的做出贡献。

我的电脑都这么有斗志，

我又怎能放弃！！

P.S. 我真的是怪咖啦。我不喜欢换东西。因为已经习惯了使用它，并和它有感情了。haha. 就像我不会换电话一样。一直用，一直喜欢下去。

这就是我。另类的我。

Mango~

坏心情

Please bear with my grumbling and venting-out of emotions. If u r experiencing a bad day or foul mood (due to tons of work, personal reasons or whatever), it is not advisable to read on. For those who choose to read (due to concern, curiosity or whatever), thank you and I hope u will be blessed with good days ahead.

Reiko 曾说过世界是黑暗的。当时我不相信。

我想因为我是个乐天派，还是我选择相信希望。

可是今天我深深的体会到这点。

也许是暂时的情绪，可是我必须发泄。

不然我想我会死的。

我承认自己的脾气不好，也许是遗传了父亲（太不负自任的说法了！）。

可是平时的我都尽量控制得很好。

唯独每次遇到妈妈的讽刺，胡乱的定夺我的人格时，

我就会爆发。

我不知我哪来的勇气。敢这样的“义正言辞”的顶撞她。

我想我已被传统的儒家文化 condemned 了吧。

可能我被西化的缘故。

我相信言论自由，不在乎辈分问题。

有时我真的想忍气吞声算了。

可是心里却出现“魔鬼”。

“魔鬼”说你不能忍气吞声，别人会当你好欺负。

可悲的是，

自己是遭到母亲的猜忌与不信任。

有时很感谢哥哥帮我说话。说相信我的人格。

这对我是多大的鼓舞啊。

可是为什么东方的父母亲就不会赞扬自己的子女呢？

不赞扬也就算了，还要以语言如此的伤害。

我大家庭真得很乱，

我每次开玩笑说可以拍《手足二》了。

可是笑声的背后却隐藏了我的无奈。

我就像夹心饼似的。

大人玩“政治”，连我们下一代也要受到牵连。

因为父母与一位阿姨的不合（思想、宗教等的冲突），

他们也一直向我施加压力，不能和她们家人好。

所谓的“大人”，行为也十分自私与幼稚。

就这样我和至亲的表弟妹疏远了。

我没做错事，却因为某些缘故被阿姨讨厌。（也因为她不喜欢我们全家）

我只能叹息。

原以为风平浪静，没想到今天一踏进门就遭到妈妈的一连串质问与“诽谤”。

什么都不知情的我竟被说成是“吃里爬外”、“笨到又被利用”等。

因为我另一个阿姨说我那个阿姨把我从msn delete 了，现又要add 我。

可我也没做什么啊。

不够睡的我加上日渐繁重的课业压力怎吃得消？

我就大声地回答，并理直气壮的阐明我的立场。

“你们大人要自相残杀，不要把我拖下水！”

大人诬赖你或是错永远都不会承认。

他们会叫你不要吵，像是 you 1st started it.

How ironic.

可是我就是我不愿意被无缘无故冤枉或羞辱啊。

大人的价值观错（like ask me dun address my aunt）我也就要跟吗？

是不是越锐利，越 critical 你就会惹祸上身？

那好吧。

我以后就装哑巴算了。

Mango~