友情宣言

感谢不能让别人来说

你们给过我的 别人是做不到的

现在有的幸福是真的 我们很快乐 也要一辈子快乐

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Sorry, 我知道改得很烂。因为是即兴创作 (adapted from 《伯乐》）。

为什么我要写这一段话呢？

因为宥嘉唱的是爱情的伯乐。

而我要说的是我找到了友情的伯乐。

如果我是一匹马的话，

我一定是那匹最不起眼的马。

一匹没有自信的马。

可是幸运之神十分眷顾我。

04 年，我找到了让我做自己，让我发挥所长的伯乐。

他们让我知道自己有组织能力。

让我能开怀大笑。

在我无助，甚至面临自我毁灭时及时伸出友情之手。

让我不跌入悬崖，继续走回快乐的道路上。

真的。没有你们我真的是缺了脚的千里马。

有时我这匹脾气不好或者走得太累的马真的需要伯乐们的鼓励与支持。

所以真的很感谢你们的耐心与体谅。

我也很期盼另一成员的归队。

伯乐与千里马之间存在着一份很深的缘分。

我会珍惜这份上天赐予的礼物。永远永远。

Mango

sentimental post in the middle of the night~

如果您不在

是您启发我，

是您教我做人的道理。

是您教我要孝顺父母，对人谦虚有理。

您让我看见世间的真善美，

让我知道就算世界遗弃我，

大家都否决我，

你还是相信我，支持我的。

外婆，

对不起。

我真的不是个很好的孙女。

在您痛苦的时候，

我没办法做什么。

我只能无助的看着您受苦。

我很矛盾，内心挣扎着。

您自愿要离开，

说不想再受折磨了。

叫我们成全您，然后如果有那么一天

您离开了，

叫我们都别哭。

这是多残忍的事啊！

我是肉和血做成的。

要我怎能麻木的对待这一切呢？

生老病死虽是人生的规律，

可是我还是无法接受。

我无法想象您不在了。

如果你们还有年长的长辈，

一定要多陪陪他们。

牵牵他们的手，

让他们感受到人间的温暖，

亲人的爱与支持。

送给我致爱的外婆。

我爱您。

您要加油！

Mango~

Updates on Mango's life

This entry is a response to Jupiter's entry. :)

It is 1am and I juz suffered a lot today. Now I may not know what I'm typing too, cos typing has been very tiring for me in the past few days.

To know what I've been doing during the last weekend and till today, I'm busy rushing an assignment which needs to be written in thesis format. Worse is, we have to submit in HANDWRITTEN copy. Can you imagine how torturing it is to write on 稿纸? 10000 plus words. Today is the deadline and we really copied till the very last min of submission. And imagine muz include footnote manually. I was really stressed up la.. kept dropping hair. And fedup. Cos got 3 of us in the group. Then got one groupmate will come up with lots of questions. Making our life terrible cos we dunno how to solve oso. Delaying the progress in dealing with our individual parts oso. Ytd I answered like 10 calls la. Can't even concentrate in writing. Only slept 4.5 hrs. TOday muz hand up the report plus got a translation quiz.

I have never done an assignment which makes me so fedup before. Dun even noe what we're arguing about. And there's this terrible Q&A sesssion. I was complaining this sem is like so fast. We dun even haf time to grasp the knowledge needed to be acquired.

I think watching tv has really become a luxury 4 me. Cos I dun even haf enough sleep. So be happy that U can sleep 8 hrs a day.

Then my mum said talking to me is like wanting my life like that. Ya.. I'm so tired that I dun even feel like replying sms, answering calls. What I want is sleep.

Fri got presentation oso. Sat is brother's wedding. Sun evening sparing time to relax by going fren's choir concert.

I miss U guys too. Really do. Although last fri I juz had uncle's food with Juliette, I felt it's been long since we met up too. Haiz.

Dunno if Xinyi's chicken pox has recovered. Hope u are on the process of recovery!!

I've been so sad over the weekend cos when I check this blog I nv see my fav e news.

It's become part n parcel of my life. Used to watching Jupiter's video (oK la only bbt I nv watch).

Wanted to do Shuang Fei but can't seem to devote time on that. Sorry!

I'm really touched to see once in a while frenz write posts to show concern. I tink it's very impt in friendship and strength for us to carry on with life.

I hope the next time we see each other is not on Jupiter's bdae.

Jia you!!!

From: Mango n her baby qi zai

Friendship..

Dear zhui xing frenz,

Even though I am so busy and have piling up assignments and test, I'm still spending the time to blog about what I think. So please be patient with me and hear what I have got to say OK?

Ok.. I'm writing cos I hope we all can spend some time thinking and cooling down. Actually it's not something very serious.. friends do argue and unhappy with one another at times. So I hope this time round it's juz another ordinary argument. Dun bear grudges k? U noe how much we treasure this friendship.. Dun ruin it juz because of our impulsiveness, stubbornness or even irrationalism.

I'm quite neutral towards this incident.

I understand that Xinyi has got her own problems. Having to handle her sis' matter, stressed with increasing workload, tuition stuff etc.

But xinyi,
Do U know that we are not forcing u, not giving u pressure and not even think that planning ur bdae is a hassle. I can tell U it's the Opposite.

Why will someone spend so much effort to plan ur bdae if U r not important to us? I can tell U it's not easy for e 3 of us to meet up, preparing ur gifts and surprises. We have the thought and sincerity to plan ur bdae. Cos it's 21st bdae! Do u understand our intention? It's same as parents will not nag at their children if they dun love them. Logic is the same.

We didn't say that we muz plan everything by tt sat when we met. We juz hope to know what U think, juz yes or no to say if U like the picnic idea. I read ur blog. U like the idea.. But why dun U juz tell us? That will save us trouble and ur trouble of being irritated by constant reminders rite?

Why we remind? Again.. Ur bdae is impt to us. In fact, every zhui xing member's bdae is impt. At least to me.

Xinyi, so when U say smth like "I also never say I wanna celebrate, but it's u all who kept saying".. it really hurts us. Cos we spend so much effort juz wanna make Ur day memorable. Then not appreciative it's ok. But "tink we so free meh?"

Again it's back to U saying U never tell us to plan. But if everyone dun wanna plan, then how we meet? It's not like it's juz 2 of us. It's 4 of us.. each with different schedules, different mindsets. Planning is necessary. But it doesn't mean tt we muz make it stressful like a meeting.

We look forward to meeting. Then planning also becomes enjoyable cos everyone wants to have the gathering. Everyone has a role in planning. It not only lessens the workload for me and others who r planning, it also makes outings more enjoyable. Cos we roughly haf an idea what we going to do.

So I hope Xinyi.. u can take the time to ponder about this k? Please dun say dun wanna meet. Spare a thought for us K? We'll wait till u free. At ur convenience. But ur attitude is not right this time. Maybe due to stress or whatever reasons.. But I think u also 2 stubborn at times le.

And Xianhao.. I know U did ur best in trying to reach us. Thanks for the effort. But at times U need to be patient too. Give the respondent a day to reply k? And respondents please do at least reply at the end of the day.

Everyone has flaws. We muz accept and forgive. That's what frenz r for rite?

Can I see the old Zhui xing spirit back?? Please?!

我不希望看见追星解散。

Fine $100000.

Haha.

Mango~

Outings And more outings!

I had a really fun time singing at Partyworld with zhui xing on fri! It has been ages since we sang. The environment was good and I like the drink- Passionfruit red tea. Juliette said it was a bit sweet but I think it tasted good.

Then Shini sang many EL songs, Jupiter said he was in-charge of singing fast songs, Juliette sang the 黄金年华复古songs, while I sang a mixture of these slow and 双人对唱 songs. It took us sometime trying to figure out how to use the remote..

Then after singing, we decided we were really hungry (me especially!).. and we walked around hunting for food. We went Ichiban, Sakae and back to Ichiban cos there got food Juliette could eat. We had a really sumptous lunch! More photos will be posted by Shini..

Most incredibly, I can finished 2 bowls of rice.. Jap rice! Yummy.. I loved the sashimi, soft shell crab and unagi. Very nice.. then Juliette was amazed by my 惊人食量。

Then Shini left the group and went for her star gazing.. while Jupiter was bored as we went lib and left him to read his TIME. By the time we came back, we decided to go walk around in the mall. Then we went back lib to use comp and we all were so full that we were falling asleep.

Then went back mall to shop again.. To and Fro.. hahaz.

It was really fun being with u all.

Ok.. so now we haf 2 decide what's the programme like for Shini's bdae?

Is the escape on?? After escape where u like 4 dinner Shini? Please post ur wishes and we'll do our best to fulfil ur wishes. :)

Hope 2 see some opinions.

P.S. Shini, I read ur blog le. :)

Mango the secretary strikes~

my feelings..

Thanks Reina. Ur videos really help to cheer me up a little. But ya.. as u noe.. this period is my 低潮期。My emotions really sank to the bottom. Nobody can help me I noe. I muz help myself. As I'm told repeated: "time will heal the wound". But I thought I'll write something as a medium to express emotions. It's really been long since I'm hit by such thing. The last time I feel really sad was when my grandpa passed away. It was during A level year. I guess I really put in 2 much emotions in my relationships with others.

My dear friends.. thanks for being there and listen to me. Maybe u think wat u say will not be of help, but it really did console me a little. Even a tiny bit. I hope 我输了爱情，赢了友情。But really.. I need time. It's really not easy to take it. Let alone forget. The feeling is just like u build a strong sand castle, yet u nv realise it's so weak that it topples. Worse is u didn't noe wat went wrong. But u still like the castle u build. Cos u put in so much effort to maintain it from not toppling down. Now u r forced to accept it has toppled and can't build back the same one again.

But I guess most humans are selfish. They'll only tink of their own interest. 感情就没有谁对谁错。But imagine people u r very close to already treats u like this. Let alone people in the working society. I think it has taught me a lesson. I shouldn't trust someone so much. I should learn to love myself more instead of always thinking for others. Tat's wat Reina said. How I wish I can be strong.. strong and numb to all hurt. It's impossible. I shall try not to think so much.

I choose not to slp today. I wanna see 日出。And really can't sleep. I got so much things to tell him. But sadly, I'm not given the chance to. Not even till the point of breaking up. Frenz tell me it's better this way. Better to hear it from him. But I think there's no much difference.

I'm really a 嘴硬心软 person. So I hope I won't have any arguments with anyone of u. I dun wan to lose any close friend anymore.

This is so emotional. So unlike me. But I believe on sat when I rebond my hair, I will be better. 心情不好的时候，我喜欢改变自己。Esp hair.. Cos it signifies a brand new start.

I won't regret. Cos I've tried my best. I'm proud of myself. Cos I tink I did not lose afterall. Because I know how to love. How to care. Unlike some pathetic individuals who are so full of themselves.

I think love is blind. I hope I can stop thinking about it alr. I can do it. Help me to fill the big hole in my heart k? I really need to regain back my strength.

Mango~

Resolution reflection..

Hihi.. my turn to reflect and take a look at 07 resolution.. I think 07 one is quite crappy leh. haha.

1. Be hardworking next sem wif wenya leo sis

Ok.. I think I've tried my best for 07 exams and I'm quite satisfied with the outcome. I'll promise to work even harder for 08. Cos I also got times when I super slack and lagging in readings one. This year hope can plan a better study schedule out. All zhui xing members r most welcome. :)

2. May my family, frenz n him be happy, healthy n cheerful always

This is more like wish. I think 07 quite Ok. I think health is most important so 08 I also wish everyone I care for will be healthy.

3. Score more As in exams.. dun feel as much stress as this sem

Ok.. 1st year got no As. As I'm more settled down, I attained As in the last exam. I'll have to thank Buddha for blessing me. I think I'm not so stressful during exam period le. But also have to work hard to try and relax cos last exam got gastric pain and got to consult doctor. Hope sickness can stay away from me during exams.

4. Receive more encouragement frm others

Ya.. I think I'm more encouraged. My parents nv stress me so much le. They actually gave me much more freedom to go out study. I also received encouraging sms from frenz that I have potential, can do it etc. Remember to sms me often! haha.. cos I can't live w/o encouragement and assurance one.

5. Dun spend so much on useless things.. like buy a cd once every 3 mths

Yes! I did it! But I keep spending on food! cd I also buy once in a blue moon. haha. Unless I love it loads.

6. Dun be 3 min like wenya

This is weird. I dunno why I wrote this. Really funny. But I think I've matured and 3 min is not my characteristics la. haha.

7. Most imptantly, manage my time well.. balance studies, family, frens n r/s even better

I think I manage my time fine, since I did not suffer from any depression for not able to cope. BUT.. I think my r/s is on the rocks leh. Dunno how to break the wall between us. So I guess I failed in this area ba. Hope 08 I can revive the r/s and manage it better. OR if things really dun work out, I'll get it sorted out and live my life well. I must be strong.

Review 08 resolution and add ons:

1) wOrk hard wif Leo sis n frenz by organiSing effective Study outings, juz sit at individual tables n mug. only take breaks when necessary.

2) Personally, keep up wif work by reading n reviSing everyday. dun leave 2 last min. Enjoy the modules that I'm taking. Unless is no choice muz take one haha.

3) cut down on online duration. Max is 2 hrs online. (non-holiday period) unless 4 research.

4) save up bit by bit. together is $10 per mth.

5) pLan n celebrate 21st bdae well. Make my special day unfogettable in my life.

6) Gd juggle between family, frenz n r/s

7) be patient, better tempered to family

8) Reduce of outings unless they're productive. oK if during hols.

9) be more responsible

10) Read more useful books instead of watching 2 many online videos.

11) supportive towards my loved ones

12) wish: hope all my closed ones will be healthy, happy always.

13) Punctual for outings. (unless last min ammendments)

14) Improve on dressing and personal grooming.

15) Earn $ if I have the time.

16) Have my own set of principles and stick strongly to them.

17) Better way of dealing with problems. Settle issues straightaway if necessary.

Yup that's all. Hope I can fulfil my resolution! Happy new year!

Love and wishes,

Mango~

Merry xmas 2007

Hey my dear frenz.. xmas is coming! It's the eve now.. hope u all have been enjoying the festive season!

Later I'm going to rent vcd: Mr bean's on holiday. I dun tink u all wanna watch my tutor friend leh. Tried digging the boxes but so tired. Dunno where my brother's new vcds went to. So sort of give up. Haha.

I can't wait 4 tmr! Is it really Christmas tmr? So fast! But somehow I can't feel the Christmassy mood this year.

Juz to remind again..

Annual Zhui Xing Christmas Celebration

Place to meet: CCK mrt station

Time: 12 noon (pls be punctual)

Venue: Jupiter's house

Things to bring: 1 VCD per person, xmas presents for exchange (Jupiter can ignore), any board games if u have

Activities:

Watch VCDs (see if can watch finish e 4 movies.. like movie marathon)

Gift exchange

The Da Xiao Ai Chi Gossip Game

Board games

And the usual chatting.. I'm sure we can go naturally with the flow tmr.

Place for lunch: Pastamania

Place for dinner: Random (see what we want to eat)

B4 that: Buy titbits for movie marathon

That's all folks! See ya guys tmr.

Mango wishing all a Merry Xmas And A Happy Happy New Year!

Mango's yu dan reflection

Ok.. the yu dan's show enlightens me. I dunno if now I change my mind to go the xmas gathering can or not. But at least I ask. This episode is about 君子 and 小人。I can't say I'm a jun zi cos I am stubborn in some areas and have own principles to adhere to. The show teaches me not to be narrow-minded. Actually I already tried to think in the shoes of others, tried to tolerate. But this time I'm too rush to make the decision.

To be a gentleman, you need to think of others. 以大局为重 and be far-sighted. Actually to be frank, I hate ppl who only think of themselves. Sometimes I'm too subjective. Yes maybe that friend has reasons for not coming to the gathering. But in my heart, there's a devil. Come on.. it's a group outing. Why the outing u wan no matter how far ppl will accommodate but when it comes to places u dun wanna go, u won't go. And it's not once.. it's skip all the outings. And some only need the bus fare like IKEA. Maybe really is disinterested ba. But ya.. I'm disappointed and another voices tell me this friend why so self-centred. Makes me so sad. And it's definitely not easy to plan outings. When there are times when 1 or 2 can't make it. Not easy to make it that all can come.

And I hope u all understand the hassle I went through this 3 years trying to plan. I let u plan u will also say it's difficult. Every outing as a dedicated member of zhui xing, I hope everyone will make their best effort to come. Tell u all smth, becos of zhui xing outings, smtimes I had to sacrifice my sat for dates which are quite rare le. I'm not trying to claim merit or say how noble I am. But
I dunno lah.. that's how I view this club. It's really impt to me.

Ok.. so I'm frustrated when "she" juz walked off without looking back. I think it's quite rude. I'm sorry if I'm too direct but that what I felt. And it's my fault if I criticise.. but I really dunno that those "jokes" or light-hearted words were taken in so seriously. If u all want, I can be serious like a block of wood. Then it won't be me le loh. Cos there's no laughter. I'm not saying you muz be the centre of amusement. But everyone also say each other..like Jupiter always bring TIME out and we also joked abt that. I dunno also.. I may be a fake person next time loh. If that's most appropriate.

Yu dan says 小人 always look upon himself and care very much about the acquisition of material goods. I do spend but not at the expense of friendship. Definitely not. If u acquire so much of pretty stuff, but you actually lose spending time with your friend, I think it's quite pathetic.

Plus if you really not happy with your friend, you should carry out effective communication with her. Instead of telling another friend 1st. Imagine how the friend will feel. Especially if she's already unhappy.

Actually sat's incident was quite small. It can dun happen one. But since it's blown up.. I guess we all need some time to 4get. Not easy 4 two stubborn Leos I guess.

The friend shld listen. Open the heart and listen.

I agree all have different tolerance limit. I'm unsure if I reached mine yet. Sometimes I feel so unappreciated. Insignificant. I dunno whether meeting has become tiring or wat. I hope not.. maybe I shouldn't expect all to be as enthu as I.

If nothing crops up, I'll attend the gathering..

I pray that everything will be resolved naturally.

All the best,

Mango~

The meeting continues online..

Hi all my best frenz, it's me blogging again! For the time being, Jupiter and I have the time to keep the blog alive. Muz squeeze my brain juice on wat to write.

Yup. I haf to agree tat yesterday's shopping trip was amazing. This year's theme is budget but classy. Meaning? Though we pay less, the items still appear to be high-class. Reina steel cat commented it's impossible. I shall prove her wrong next week. Haha. Cos rmb I'm the HDB tai tai? Though I dun like the nick but the characteristics somehow suit me lah. :)

And thanks Jupiter for ur advice on the gift. I hope I can find ur perfect gift with the rest too. Can't wait for xmas to come! It has been my motivation during the exams. Imagine we can eat pizza, chat, watch the vcds we've selected etc. (pls Jupiter I want pizza. I dun wan oyster mee sua. Dun haf the xmas feel.)

Ok. To answer to all of ur queries..

6th: city plaza shopping (mango and reina. yi nt confirmed)

8th: relaxation day. Venue nt confirmed too. Jupiter suggests vivo. Wat do u guys tink? Can feedback when u all finished exams. I suggest relaxation cum shopping. haha.

After that can we choose a date for KBOX? Please? Very long nv go liao. I really wanna sing badly. Singing has always been our club's passion and hobby isn't it?

Then if it's possible, we can combine KBOX and IKEA on the same day. If nt another day oso can.

Hope the dates can be confirmed. watashi shall do the planning n coordination again. Muz gif me best secretary award liao. haha.

Till we see each other really soon.. take care all of u! Lots of misses.

Mango~

The action is back..

Dearest frenz,

It's Mango updating u guys on exciting stuff! Ok 1st, this week is really a hectic week for me as it's my exam week. Still got 1 more paper to go b4 freedom. Went out with Reina and Jupiter today.. he got a vest finally! (for the benefit of xinyi who wasn't there). So wat am I blogging about today? Haha.. IT'S THE AFTER-EXAMS OUTING! Aren't u all excited abt it?

Things we will be doing:

1) Relaxation day cum shopping. I suggest at the tcc cafe @ citylink there. Dunno wat u all tink. Cos jupiter said we nv tried real cafe b4. There quite classy and shld be affordable ba. Shopping! We can go look ard 4 xmas gift ideas!

2) IKEA shopping. My make-over room plan of course.

3) KBOX trip. Reina dun u dare to break ur promise. haha.. if nt u haf 2 bear the consequence.. hahaz.

4) Xmas celebration at Jupiter's house. We will bring a vcd each and haf a movie marathon. We can play the truth game. haha.. it's gossiping time! Of course it's the unwrapping of presents time too! we can order pizza oso!

5) New Year celebration? I'm nt sure if u all wan this. hahaz.

See so many things to look out for! Be optimistic!!! We'll haf loads of fun! Can't wait!

Take care and look for to these December highlights.

Yours truly,

Mango the royal zhui xing secretary

Songs intro~ xin guang album evaluation

Hi my dear zhui xing frenz..

R u all stressed with the never-ending reports or tasks at work?

I just bought 星光帮 昨天今天明天 爱*星光精选。

It's $20.90. It's the most expensive cd I ever bought.

But it's a really good album.

I will rate it 4.5 stars.

There are some songs I'll like to intro (due to personal preference).

Haha..

Actually wanna put videos in this entry. But dunno why link got prob or is it I dunno how to link.. but pls go listen.

Esp 潘裕文《捕梦人》、《离人》、周定纬《预感》、杨宗纬《多余》、林宥嘉《走钢索的人》、许仁杰《不安静的夜》。

New Blog Song 周定纬《预感》：

爱你变习惯不再稀罕

我们该冷静谈一谈

你说你喜欢一点点浪漫

却把跟随我的脚步放慢

没有你分享分担

我的快乐悲伤

心情天天天天纷乱

我一再试探你一再隐瞒

是谁改变爱情原来的模样

有一种预感爱就要离岸

所有回忆却慢慢碎成片断

不能尽欢爱总是苦短

我只想要你最后的答案

有一种预感想挽回太难

对你还有无可救药的期盼

我坐立难安望眼欲穿

我会永远守在灯火阑珊的地方

music

没有你分享分担

我的快乐悲伤

心情天天天天纷乱

我一再试探你一再隐瞒

是谁改变爱情原来的模样

有一种预感爱就要离岸

所有回忆却慢慢碎成片断

不能尽欢爱总是苦短

我只想要你最后的答案

有一种预感想挽回太难

对你还有无可救药的期盼

我坐立难安望眼欲穿

我会永远守在灯火阑珊的地方

(repeat)

Enjoy！It's a nice song!

Mango~

the movie..

Hey my dearest frenz,
This is the website of 原著张爱玲版本的色.诫。
Enjoy! Haven haf time to finish reading. But my friend told me the movie quite 忠实于原版。Can take a look!

http://www.tianyabook.com/zhangailing/sejie.htm

Below is some juicy parts of 李安的专访！

也许是拍《色，戒》太累了-他和梁朝伟，两个追求完美的男人，互相折磨着。而李安对于梁朝伟更是不吝赞美之词：他演的实在是太棒了！

Yes I totally agree. 梁朝伟说的话不多，但胜在他的内心戏！他把“汉奸”的角色演的不会太over, 让人太讨厌。虽然我无法体会为什么他为何对“性”那么渴望。是汤唯的角色太“诱人”还是男人本来就好色？haha..

But I still prefer the original Taiwan version! Dun cut such a great movie.

李安对张爱玲在这部小说里采用的角度深表佩服：“这个故事切入的角度很奇特。一般人看抗日都是慷慨激昂的，但张爱玲看抗日却是从一个色诱汉奸的女大学生入手。这里面有种东西吸引着我，让我既兴奋又害怕，又不知道究竟是什么。我希望能够通过拍这个片子找寻我的答案。”

据报道，对于片中存在大量的情色镜头，李安表示这是艺术创作的需要。不过，他表示，他会尊重中国电影管理部门的意见，亲自操刀，在保留下来的男女主角之间的三场情欲戏里剪掉暴露的部分。李安说，由于其他的神韵还在，流畅度不会有问题，他相信电影还是会很好看。

The movie has so many appealing parts. Reina likes the costumes, especially the chongsum. I like the music, the actor and actress. Xianhao likes the cast too. 电影太棒了！except cut those sexual scenes which I think make it hard for me to fully get the whole feeling of the lust between them. The scenes are too abrupt. Then not much impression actually.

Lee Hom's acting got improvement. But I also dun like his weak character in the movie. Love the lead actress but never protect her. If you love someone, will you let her sacrifice her chastity? Maybe it's cos of a more important matter like saving the nation and eliminate the traitors. But a man SHOULD protect the girl he loves rite? He also lack of the wisdom to plan and act swiftly. 可惜。

My rating: 4.8/5 (will give 5 if it's the unsensored version)


Sources: http://www.entimes.com/report/2007/8/30/102105692.html
http://ent.tom.com/1002/1011/2006619-195641.html
http://blog.tom.com/blog/read.php?bloggerid=103563&blogid=72129

Hope u all enjoyed this special feature! haha..

Mango pudding~

complains..

Seems like it's not a really optimistic period for xianhao and I. haiz. Dunno why also got mood swing sometimes. Guess people are making me lose temper. My temper is really bad loh. Just that I try to control myself outside. At home I'm quite like a 大小姐. At most being nagged but home is really the warmest place on Earth. I seldom complain stuff de. This time round the stupid presentation is making me 火大 loh. Juz dun understand why some people can just be so damn lazy. I classify these people as "TONA" (talk only no action). I really furious with such people. So if u r one, I warn u to stay away from me.

Some people juz know how 2 talk big loh. Everything also wan to do. But then when it comes to actual work, where's the talk big person? In the end it's me who's doing most of the work! It's really unfair. So I give them black face. Now I feel that I'm faking myself to cooperate with them loh. Like Jupiter does in army. I dun wanna be close to them anymore. Juz like besides work, we are 井水不犯河水. Can't stand some person. So recently not feeling too gd. Muz give me some time to 4get how sucky these people are. Self-centred. Please loh. I'm also busy. Did u ever spare some thought for me?

If I never cover 4 them, this project will screw up. haiz. Maybe I'm a perfectionist. But I juz can't submit something which I won't even be happy of. I hope my luck will change 4 the better. Stop torturing me!

At least today ate nice laksa. My favourite de-stress food.

Mango~

Changes..

reina doesn't want me to post about her new hair. haiz. She wanna sing bei pan very very much. haiz.. and keeps saying that everywhere she goes. I like lin you jia. He's the best. She likes pan yu wen, yang zong wei, xiao jing teng and lin you jia in sequence.

I think my mood sinks to the bottom. Haiz. Been in bad mood cos of unhappy group project experiences. Reina knows the best. haiz.. been complaining to her every time we meet.

She has Bella. Anyone wanna borrow? (assume xianhao is now saying "I wan I wan")

Weather is gloomy. So does my heart. Only lin you Jia's voice can cheer me up.

Hope his single is out soon.

P.S. Reina asks if sat wanna meet?

Mango's depressed period

What's up? (mango)

haha.. ok I shall join in the fun too b4 my laptop batt runs out. This week's oso boring loh.. going to sch and attend lectures, tutorials. But I broke record. Watched 2 movies this week. <881> and "ratatouille".. Ok 2 different genre of movies.. but these are the movies I really wanted to watch. Guess the next maybe muz wait till the "fairytale-real-person" movie comes out. Dunno wat's the name.

<881> is really nice. I luv those costumes. Very impressive. The last part of the movie oso touching and the style of shooting is very unique. U all go watch cos I dun wanna disclose the surprise element.

"ratatouille" is oso a cute movie. I'm so impressed by those delicious french food that the rat can cook. And the famous line comes along: " Anyone can cook". Very nice. I always luv cartoons.

The albums I'm listening to:

Zhang Dong Liang
It started with a kiss Soundtrack (from the net)

Currently finished: It started with a kiss

Wanted to borrow: Mitch Alboom's book from Xianhao
Any useful chinese materials from wenya
Nth from xinyi 4 now as I haven finish ur anime vcds

On crunchyroll: 大小爱吃
Maybe will watch 超级星光大道 or huan huan ai

Currently reading: My academic readings! argh.. cant finish de.
wo bao online paper (hope can continue this habit)

Shopping List: Hope got $ to buy e 881 soundtrack
Haven found tt twinklebell necklace
Nice albums

Maybe borrowing "Mars" from my fren.. haha. cos like no more show 2 watch le.

That all folks!

Mango~

Touched

Hey all zhui xing frenz.. how r u all? seems so long after the bdae outing. Though I met Jupiter and Reina last week to purchase MP3, it seems long long time ago too.
Was shocked when I read Jupiter's entry. Muz be strong ya! Though u may haf said u dun haf tt strong feeling towards ur grandma, but it's hard to say. U may be affected by e ppl around u. Like when my grandpa passed away, my mum cried so pitifully I oso feel heartbroken. But I was quite close to my grandpa though.
Life's really vulnerable rite? Sometimes I will be frustrated or depressed abt some things. But recently.. I adopt a new thinking. U see.. if we r sad or angry over certain things, we are wasting our time. N having negative emotions is terrible, why not we adopt a more positive mindset? Plus we are given life by God to live life well and to e fullest. So why not? I shall keep thinking like this. Cos I'm watching e "it started with a kiss" drama now. Lin Yi Chen's role is really a brave character. Though she's not smart, she has so much passion in the things she wanna do. Like in studies (so that she can be in the same uni as Zheng Yuan Chang), admiring somebody etc. I really admire her spirit.

So let's Jia You!! Dun be defeated by any setbacks. For all the setbacks will only make us stronger!

Looking 4ward to our next outing!!

Luv,

Mango

Life Reflections~

hi all, i haf no chinese software.. haven install yet. Using a temporary laptop lent from my sis-in-law. I had a lot of reflections today.. wanna share wif my precious frenz.

This afternoon I received a call from my relative. I am very shocked as my mum's old fren passed away. Actually in the past I disliked her as she was irritating. Always came and repeated the same thing. "If only ur maternal grandma is alive, she will be glad to see that u have grown up". As I was an unexpected case, everyone in my family is surprised to hear that my mum was pregnant when she was 45 years old. This fren of hers recommends my parents to meet (old tradition) and she often comes and say this. Expects us to be grateful to her. I was irritated but my mum tells me that she has a sad story behind her, so I tried to bear with her. She has lots of money but is super thifty. Doesn't want to eat out, saves here and there, even wat she wears is cheap material kind. She even borrows $ a few times from my mum. I tot she was so greedy. So rich still wanna borrow $. Actually she wanna saves up 4 her children. Helps her son in his business but his son still unfillial to her. Her maid and grandchildren oso rude 2 her. She has no fren 2 tok 2, so she always call my mum up or come our house.

Just 2 weeks ago, she came and I chatted with her(in hokkien). I told her 2 go shopping cos so old alr if dun enjoy is really wasted if u juz leave this world slogging e whole of ur life. She says shopping needs $. I suppose the older generation is really thrifty, and shows their luv 2 their children not in e form of encouraging words, but more practical means like $. Wat touches me is tat despite having difficulty walking long distances, she walked a long way with my mum 2 visit my grandma. She bought $3 lor mee 4 my grandma, which is hardly seen 4 a thifty person like her.

I believe tat old ppl haf a strong sixth sense if they r leaving this world. Cos tt auntie asked my mum where she could take a nice photo. Now come 2 think abt it, mayb it's 4 her funeral and it's as if she knows it beforehand.

To someone who is not exactly close to me, but appeared in my life, maybe as a passerby.. I haf mixed feelings. My mum too has a mixed feeling. I presume life is so vulnerable n death is so unexpected. So quietly.. without notification.

I hope this story is a reminder to u guys tat we muz cherish every moment we haf with our family n frenz.

Esp 2 xianhao: Since life is so short, we muz cherish it. Dun be beaten by e negative comments u receive from some insensitive ppl. Wenya tells u not 2 be affected by it, which u haf a possibility. If 1 person says it, u will ignore. 2 persons say it u will wonder. More ppl say it u will believe. So dun doubt upon urself. As i say, juz be urself. Nobody can pull u down if u urself oso tink u r like tt. Wenya: If e person is respectable n has good character, we can believe him. But if e person is a despicable, lousy, or somebody with weak philosophy in life, we cannot trust him. Not everyone in this world we can trust. So no worries. U haf at least one person u can trust in this world rite? tat itself is a blessing. Bear wif it n soon u'll be out. Facing this tough world u need strong will n determination. Sometimes u will tend 2 4get ur direction n ur beliefs. tt is when frenz whom i believe r guardian angels, come in.

Haf a good day my frenz. I pray sincerely tt good souls will be blessed.

Xiaomei wif luv

1st week of June~

hihi.. all my dearest zhui xing frenz!
1st, miss me? i noe xinyi n wenya dun.. cos they see me often lah. But xianhao, I haf 2 apologise 4 not blogging recently. I couldn't view e old blogskin.. Until wenya changes 2 this. Good job. I like this background. Better than pink ya? Very well-done except e words. "dance wif me, love" is a bit weird 4 our blog. hahaz.

ok.. i juz came home after e singing competition and shopping with my mum. I dunno wat 2 comment about e competition. I tink it was a nice experience but kind of embarassed cos after singing and we gave back e MC e mic, both mics were sweaty. Conclusion: we were very nervous!
Why? 4 me, I guess was ok.. juz afraid of singing e wrong lyrics. Then I dunno where 2 look n what actions 2 do. Sway along wif music or dun. Then e song quite long.. but I guess we sang ok. Of course I tink we did better 4 kbox. Cos it was rather relaxing n got air-con, nice MVs 2 see. I guess my last time doing crazy things like taking part in competition. I guess I wasn't e bold type. I should sing faye song.. haha. though yanzi's songs r nice but so hard 2 sing. Got her own style.

We got 4th position.. shall not comment on how many group took part here. It was nice listening 2 others sing. Now I'm typing and I haven remove my make-up. I still prefer e plain me. I tink make-up doesn't suit me. I like 2 be myself. Special thanks 2 my future sister-in-law 4 helping me wif e make-up. N thanks all frenz and my mum who came 2 support me. =)

Xinyi took some pics.. tink she'll be uploading them soon. I luv e pic wif me beside e "pepper" seeds tree. hahaz. Ok.. tress.. leave it 2 u then!

Sorry xianhao 4 not replying smses. I haven top up. Everytime I nv reply means no $. U should noe usually my reply was fast. And I told wenya 2 help me reply. Reina, u 4gotten? How could u? sad.. haha. 23 june I can but got 2 leave by late afternoon. So e themes u settle? reuse old themes ya? Actually I'm not angry with kelvin le..cos tat incident was quite long ago. I'm glad he owned up. I always trust my frenz.. especially u all. so yup. Nobody can break our friendship. And from wat I heard, he's an easily stress up person. Not his fault I tink. Juz try 2 tolerate ba. It'll work out fine.
Congrats 4 buying new MP3! I wanna buy 1 for my bro when I get my pay. How much? I can lend u e dvd. No problem. And zhuan jiao yu dao ai rite?

Btw, can change e "zhi ding ge qu" 4 kbox? I dun wan "wo huai nian de". Kinda sick of it 4 now. maybe can try "qi shi hen ai ni" by angela?

waiting 4 e next fantastic zhui xing outing. take care lots my frenz!

Love xoxoxo,

Xiaomei

Xiaomei's reflections..

Finally i can blog.. but my brother's old laptop a bit "sort-sort" liao. so muz hurry type b4 it flashes so fast n blurs my vision.

Now listening 2 933's chart.. yanzi's "wo huai nian de" drops 2 third n replaced by angela's "qi shi hen ai ni".

Yesterday only xianhao, wenya n I went 2 Orchard. Missed xinyi's camera. She becomes zhui xing's photographer haha. We discussed abt kbox.. probably set in June rite? Can we haf e above-listed 2 songs as our "zhi ding ge qu"? I tink both oso very nice.. =) so xianhao muz tink n dun come out wif e song list so soon.. (later wenya kia-su) hahaz.

I bought a miniature princess bear hp accessory.. luv it so much n hang it on my hp alr. lucky i bought it if nt i will regret. Wenya was so naggy ytd. Tink she stayed at hm 2 much liao.. then cant switch back 2 reality.. hahaz. Nagged abt baked cheese rice and e name of a character in "zhuan jiao yu dao ai". I shld be watching my episode 15 now.. but promise I'll blog so here I am.. mayb later evening will start my overdue food column. (stress given by blog coordinator xianhao).. "blog huh.. blog blog! So sian everytime I see my entry.. no update!" =P

Actually dun wanna go Pastamania cos expensive. But wenya insisted tat she wanted 2 eat baked rice(n u noe how stubborn she is.. stubborness level is similar 2 xianhao's) so we went there 4 dinner. 1st time eating ham n sausage baked rice. Nice! Feels so rich n xin4 fu2 when u put e spoonful of cheese into ur mouth. N reminds me of xinyi cos she will pour ard half e bottle of grated cheese into e baked rice. =) We r cheese lovers!

We walked frm orchard mrt 2 nearly somerset mrt. Went 2 heeren HMV. We stayed there very long.. ard 1 hr plus i tink. Till wenya cant stand it liao.. haha. Cos they playing yanzi's gai ban "ni guang" bonus concert dvd ma.. when she started singing "飘着” i'm totally mesmised loh.. so nice n pitching is so accurate. Hope e uncle hurry informs me tat e cd is here liao. AMK e cheapest price is $18.90 but out-of-stock. N 1st time listening 2 michael buble's cd. I tink he sings very very well. Voice very soothing. I dunno tat "Me n Mrs jones" n "LOVE" r sang by him. E song "some say love is like more anything 4 two.." e commercial song.

I like S.H.E's new album PLAY 2.. I tink e 2nd track quite nice. Got "Fei Lun hai" 友情客串 sang part of mayday song.. why e album so mayday huh? hahaz.. but nice! I still cant master zhong guo hua.. dun gif me 4 "duo ming"! =)

We shopped ard.. then Stopped at this earrings shop. Wenya's crazy. Keeps thinking of titanic "heart of e ocean" thing. then said e heart-shaped earring is tt. aiyo.. then I figured around e 勾 n it dropped onto e floor. So paiseh.. e person said nvm then we hurry escaped. N wenya did silly acts like wanted 2 hit me wif e beauty centre's phamplet. Seen by e staff! hahaz.

we oso went 2 tangs then it was so crowded. I remembered xianhao said it's becos of him then got crowd. haha. In 1 of e computer shops, wenya met her junior.. she said it was her "meet familiar ppl" day..

In e "more than words" shop, I saw a girl version of my favourite tortoise soft toy. It's so special cos it's e graduation version.. muz wait till i graduate then can buy tat. so cute!

On e way.. we discussed abt aug's leo birthday. difficult sia.. oh. we oso talked abt drinks. e new brand "anything and watever" so creative. I suggested my "lame sia".. haha. we may need 2 meet up on different days 2 do e cards. see how.

Cya guys 4 kbox or monopoly outing soon! Haf a nice week ahead.

Love xiaomei