My Childhood

Hey guys,
today gonna post my weekly journal 1st. Entertainment News tml then post. Not enough time to finalise somethings yet.
This week has been quite a tiring week. Haha. I have been saying this for dunno how many wks le. But work is really tiring. Monday esp was worse. Still on wkend mood. Felt like this previous wkend nv complete alot of stuff.
Havent watched Full House and JJ Lin's concert Dvd which Xinying has kindly exchange wif mi for Gong and Yanzi Concert. We should do this kinda thing more often. haha.
Havent finish watching 1 litres of tears on youtube. Left onli the last episode but seriously no time to complete it. Wenya i know i seriously damn slow. Haha. Then the Ouran High School Host Club wanna go watch on youtube too but also no time.
Plenty of TIME magazine articles waiting for mi to read.
The 2 books bought from Borders also havent touch. Haiz.
You must have imagine the frustration of going back to camp to spend so much time on doing something you dun like when you can actually spend all those time in camp doing all that stuff. Haiz.

Tue was OT day.Reach home at 10.35pm haf to take cab lor. For ur info, the cab fare from seletar camp to my hse is 14 bucks lor. N this is not including the midnite surcharge (that is if u take cab after 12) and there was no traffic jam that day.
Tuesday was also my COS duty day. Just for ur knowledge COS is company orderly sergeant. The Sergeant is actually just put for show only coz i also not sergeant but must do COS too. Haha. Diff company's COS gt diff job. Some even need to stay overnight. But mine no need. For my COS duty, i will have to be the 1st one to arrive and the last to leave camp coz must unlock all the office and wrkshop doors and lock it at the end of the day. Plus u haf to take attendance when everyone has fall in. This is the hardest part, coz there are always this few ppl where everyone is not sure of where they are and they don't show up. So it is quite hard and it makes the COS' job difficult too.

But after a few times being COS starting to get the hang of it. That day i was also tasked to do some clerical stuff. I was told by LOTSA pple that i make a very good clerk and they ask mi if i wanted to switch to become clerk coz they can recommend mi if i agree. U know what, the offer was like so tempting lar. Coz i really sick of being technician le. Sick of doing something i am absolutely not good at. Plus sick of getting scolded even though tried ur very best (coz sometimes they still not satisfied wif my performance). To tell u the truth, i make a very bad technician. In school, i even need help in changing batteries of my calculator. N now, you are throwing mi a vechicle to fix. What do you expect right?? But if switch right, im not sure if a clerk position really suits mi. Coz in my company right, all those things they dun wanna do they throw to the clerk one lor. Plus i think i will make a lot of pple pissed if i switched over. Haiz. God pls make the decision for mi!!!

This few days , i keep on seeing like small kids on my way home from camp. Sleeping, playing, laughing. Their innocent faces just leaves so much impression on mi that i kept looking at them. Or is it jealousy and envy that is taking over. Well, i think compared to other Singaporean kids, i have a not so good childhood. Not becoz of my parents or whatever. Its juz various reasons altogether.

1st thing, i was constantly under stress. Haha. I had always been pressured to do well in school. I started having tuition at Primary 1 lor. It was like everything to mi to do well in school at that time. If i don't, i will have to face the music. Getting scolded or even caned by my parents, being stress of people comparing results, sort of getting mocked by my relatives, and i will feel very bad if ppl score very well and i score real lousy. Plus having gd results is school, is the only thing i got to show. I have nothing else to show others, i have no other talents (havent discover my singing and performing talent and interest at that time)

2nd, i was very physically weak during my childhood days, not that im any fitter now but when i was young, i keep falling sick. Cannot eat things young children like to eat. Chinese New Year pple drink Coke eat Oranges, i can only stare at them. I think all that sickness has sort of affected my physical condition now, Haha. Still not very strong, but at least my immunity system in my body in growing stronger day by day thanks to all the medicine taken when i was young. haha.

And i was a very introvert guy when i was young. Used to think i was very UGLY. Sometimes will look into the mirror and think, "i must be the world's ugliest person". Haha. Can u imagine small kid saying that leh. Haha. And whenever Composition have to write the topic, "My Best Friend" always dunno what to write, coz no friends. Haha. Then anyhow write lor, just ownself create one story like that. Haha. I will always be thinking who will be friends whoch such an ugly guy??

Plus, living under one roof with my little devil brother juz brings lotsa nightmares. N the list goes on and on and on.

So now u guys know right? My childhood not exactly very happy. Haha. So quite envy and jealous of these small kids. If only, i can go back in time again to change all that so much better right?? But i guess, its not all for nothing. It taught mi alot of things. I dun think i will have achieve so gd results without those "training" back then. Plus, i tresure all my friends alot coz last time no frens. Haha. Most imptly, it taught mi not to regret anithing that happens due to ur actions. Coz i realize that u haf only one childhood, if it passes it passes no more doing it all over again.

It was a very long entry. Hope u guys don't mind.
Going to Exercise Voyager frm Sunday morning to Wed nite. Its a big scale army outfield event. Wish mi luck. May the Lord give us ur blessing and guidance.

Cya,
P.S:~ Wenya, that was a nice song intro, didn't know the lyrics so sad until i read it. Makes mi love the song more. Going to buy Gigi's new album after my outfield to award myself!!!

Xian Hao