Stress Ar....

Wanted to go to jog wif Servbot today. We met in the LRT and then it started raining when we reached CCK. So we took the LRT back home. So here i am now blogging.

The examination stress is starting to sink in and causing me to be a little emo at times.
I guess the last sem's failure still haunts my mind especially during these times.
Last sem makes me realized that it is really not about how much u worked hard. Its about the things u write on the paper during the examinations and how the other people fair as well.
My faculty really has a lot of smart people and this has made me feel very inferior. Felt really stupid at times.

I have been thinking alot recently. Maybe a little too much.
The results of this semester is really important to me. I guess it would crush my morale literally if my results is like last sem. Thanks to Zhui Xing who have been talking to me and assuring me that i can make it. Yup, we are all in this tgt.

Sometimes i feel that i am alr replaced by others in terms of results. I have been doing very well in JC and now come to uni like that. Those people that used to be below me in terms of results are already or have already caught up wif me. That's why i feel that i do not have the confidence that i used to have and the everything is just different now. It is really a whole new game. I feel that instead on moving ahead, i am stepping back and letting people overtake me lor. Haiz.

I guess what i have to do is to put in my best right now and try not to think about all this ba.
Really pray that God will not ignore me and turn me away at this point.
My Lord, pls stay wif me and guide me through this tough times.
I really hope that you let me see the light.
I believe You chose this path for me and i am putting all my faith in You.
Amen.

Xian Hao