The Lost Document Episode

Remember the lost document episode i told u guys yesterday.

On my way to meet wenya and xinying to watch se jie yesterday, i recevied a disturbing call from my company.

"You have until now till 8pm to report to the company, they have issued a military order!"

I was so stressed up and running out of faith coz of all the things that happened recently.

On the bus, i told myself to give God another chance, i prayed hard that i would be able to find the lost document.

Upon reaching the camp, some people just have to grab the opportunity to make my situation worse. Apparently the drama that happened on wed spread throughout the whole company, yes, and i was being blamed for all the things on top of losing the document. They asked mi to start searching for the document.
Less than one minute of searching, i found it!!! Hidden between a stack of newspaper. Thank God!!!

Everyone was speechless. Apparently, no one bothered to search the area. No one bothered to come to my help when i needed them the most. I don't blame the person on duty for not finding it. But halo, the company so many people, and if the document is so important that u have to issue a military order, i expect like everyone in the company to search high and low of that damn file lar.
But NO!!!!
I just search for barely a minute and there it is, lying quietly there.
If no one bothers, why should i right??
Has everyone forgotten the little help and listening ear i have provided them?
Has everyone forgotten the every little small pieces of advices i have given them?
Has everyone forgotten how hard i always try to be always there for them when they need me the most??
Apparently, everyone has forgotten.
So i am not gonna bother anyone.

Inspite of all these, i am glad God is still with mi.
He answered to my prayers when i needed it the most. Thank you Lord!!!
Thank you for also giving mi trusting friends when i needed them.
Thanks for all ur advices guys. I really appreciate them.

Terri called and both of us cried over the phone.
She is not having a good time also.

My dear friend,
If you are reading this, i just wanna tell you that i will have to Thank God everyday for such a wonderful friend like you. You are always there for me when i needed you the most. No matter how seldom we meet, how far apart we are. I promise that you will always have a place in my heart. Friends forever yar?? Haha. Looking forward to the outing next saturday!!!

张惠妹的《我要快乐》里， 歌词写到，“ 哪怕笑得再大声 心不是热的 全都是假的 只有眼泪是真的” 正好反映我现在的心情。

不喜欢在别人面前表现脆弱的我，常以抱怨的语气和微笑带过一切。
但你们知道吗？我挤出的每一个微笑，都需要很大的勇气。
勇气已经用完了。
我已经不想再微笑了。

Xian Hao