Evaluation Test

It has been a really long time since i stepped into an examination hall.
Today was my driving evaluation test (you have to pass this stupid test before being able to book for your basic theory test). I was like so nervous lar, also dunno why, i think long time never take test and exams le, thats why feel like so freaking nervous.

The test was a 45 minutes test.
In this short 45 minutes i have to answer all the 70 MCQ questions given lor.
Plus to pass this test, u have to have at least 90% of the questions correct. Which means i can only afford to have 7 wrong questions.

And the test is not so easy as some other people say lor. The questions is like damn tricky lar. Some questions i dont even know what they asking lor.
Some questions i noe the answer one, but when i see the options, dont have the answer i was thinking sia.
For Eg:
There was this qn asking what is road hogging.
I was thinking driving at a really low speed to cause obstruction to others.
The options to my horror dont have this ans wor, all the options are like, cause people to overtake to the left or to the right. Arrgh!!!
To my surprise, there were actually two exact same questions on the test lor.
I was thinking, die le lar, 2 questions just gone like that.

Half way through the test, i was thinking, jialat le lar, confirm fail.
When the test ended and results were shown, to my expectation, yup i failed.
Result: 84%
Passing Mark: 90%
Hate it!!!

As i was walking out of the classroom, a lot of mixed feelings.
Anger, frustration, sadness, disappointment, self doubt and lack of confidence.
I even wanted to quit driving. Serious.
Then i stopped myself.
Why am i like that?
I dont even know myself?
How come such a small thing like failing a simple evaluation test and cause me to wanna quit driving altogether? Not me lor.
Is it because of lack of interest? Or do i find the learning process very tedious?

All in all, i really dont like this side of me. Always doubting myself, always so lack of confidence and always give up so easily. Why cant i just stay more positive? I don't even know why i am becoming like that.
I wonder if it is because of army.
I wonder if it is because of those betrayal of my close frens.
Or i wonder is it because i drifted myself apart from God.

Oh Lord, please fill me with the Holy Spirit and make me a stronger, more optimistic, more positive and more confident person!!!!

Xian Hao