外婆

Hey to all,
Was shocked when i opened up zhui xing yi zu website today.
No new entries at all after a week!!!!
My gosh whats happening!!!!
Pls keep those new post coming in k.

It has been a moderate week for mi.
Nothing big really happen this week.

Well, except for today, while i was strolling along Tampines Mall, my mum called.
"Your Grandma has just passed away."
Shocked. Like so sudden lar.
Actually to tell u the truth, i am not really sad or depressed when i heard the news, coz i was really not close to my grandma. But i am worried about my mum's feelings, it is her mum after all.
She sounded really normal on the phone. Telling mi all the details and when i have to be free so that i can attend all the rituals. My mum has always been a strong person. I wonder if she just kept everything to herself.

Actually i sort of pity my grandma, she never had a good life, my grandpa die when i wasnt even born leaving her to take care of the whole family. But when she old that time, only my mum and one of my uncles are willing to take care for her. The others just like simple bo chap. Chinese New Year also don't see them. Frankly speaking, i don't even noe how many cousins i have in this side of he family lar. It was just a few years back when, i was told that one of this guy my age was my cousin and i was like, "What!! I don't even know."

But as i took the mrt alone i began to do some serious thinking.
As a Christian, I have failed.
I have failed to led my family into the light and to "save" them.
I once read that,"God will find the right place and right time for things to happen." "God will assist us to save more people and lead them to the His side."
But seeing them go without God is really hurtful.
Lord, I pray that my family and all my close friends will be able to see the light and will live enternally at Your kingdom.

外婆,
虽然和你不是很亲密
虽然不能减轻你的痛苦
但想和你说: "外婆, 你要走好!"

Xian Hao