Life Reflections~

hi all, i haf no chinese software.. haven install yet. Using a temporary laptop lent from my sis-in-law. I had a lot of reflections today.. wanna share wif my precious frenz.

This afternoon I received a call from my relative. I am very shocked as my mum's old fren passed away. Actually in the past I disliked her as she was irritating. Always came and repeated the same thing. "If only ur maternal grandma is alive, she will be glad to see that u have grown up". As I was an unexpected case, everyone in my family is surprised to hear that my mum was pregnant when she was 45 years old. This fren of hers recommends my parents to meet (old tradition) and she often comes and say this. Expects us to be grateful to her. I was irritated but my mum tells me that she has a sad story behind her, so I tried to bear with her. She has lots of money but is super thifty. Doesn't want to eat out, saves here and there, even wat she wears is cheap material kind. She even borrows $ a few times from my mum. I tot she was so greedy. So rich still wanna borrow $. Actually she wanna saves up 4 her children. Helps her son in his business but his son still unfillial to her. Her maid and grandchildren oso rude 2 her. She has no fren 2 tok 2, so she always call my mum up or come our house.

Just 2 weeks ago, she came and I chatted with her(in hokkien). I told her 2 go shopping cos so old alr if dun enjoy is really wasted if u juz leave this world slogging e whole of ur life. She says shopping needs $. I suppose the older generation is really thrifty, and shows their luv 2 their children not in e form of encouraging words, but more practical means like $. Wat touches me is tat despite having difficulty walking long distances, she walked a long way with my mum 2 visit my grandma. She bought $3 lor mee 4 my grandma, which is hardly seen 4 a thifty person like her.

I believe tat old ppl haf a strong sixth sense if they r leaving this world. Cos tt auntie asked my mum where she could take a nice photo. Now come 2 think abt it, mayb it's 4 her funeral and it's as if she knows it beforehand.

To someone who is not exactly close to me, but appeared in my life, maybe as a passerby.. I haf mixed feelings. My mum too has a mixed feeling. I presume life is so vulnerable n death is so unexpected. So quietly.. without notification.

I hope this story is a reminder to u guys tat we muz cherish every moment we haf with our family n frenz.

Esp 2 xianhao: Since life is so short, we muz cherish it. Dun be beaten by e negative comments u receive from some insensitive ppl. Wenya tells u not 2 be affected by it, which u haf a possibility. If 1 person says it, u will ignore. 2 persons say it u will wonder. More ppl say it u will believe. So dun doubt upon urself. As i say, juz be urself. Nobody can pull u down if u urself oso tink u r like tt. Wenya: If e person is respectable n has good character, we can believe him. But if e person is a despicable, lousy, or somebody with weak philosophy in life, we cannot trust him. Not everyone in this world we can trust. So no worries. U haf at least one person u can trust in this world rite? tat itself is a blessing. Bear wif it n soon u'll be out. Facing this tough world u need strong will n determination. Sometimes u will tend 2 4get ur direction n ur beliefs. tt is when frenz whom i believe r guardian angels, come in.

Haf a good day my frenz. I pray sincerely tt good souls will be blessed.

Xiaomei wif luv