Depression

I think my depression might be coming back again.

Lately, i am so easily agitated by the smallest things you could ever think of.

Talked to Wenya about all these when we were doing Xinying's card. She said i am just tired of being in this kind of life.
You know what?? I think she might be right.

My morale at work lately has been so low that i keep getting stressed up and throw my temper here and there whenever the work load picks up. Because of my frequent mood swings, i quarrelled with alot of people recently. Haiz.

And sometimes, there are a lot of things going on back stage, its only when you start having heart to heart talk with people that you realized that you are missing out a lot. Suddenly, things are going to change and the things that you predict will happen nv comes true.

My promotion to corporal rank had been delayed as i have failed my 1st IPPT and they have not updated it with the 2nd IPPT that i have passed. Apparently, you cannot be promoted if you fail ur IPPT. What rubbish right?? Plus i have already pass my IPPT, then just because of some admin problem, my promotion is dealyed. N i don't even noe if i will be backpayed.

Sian lor, sometimes i feel so sian.
Why are u doing all these?
Why are you trying so hard dealing with all the superiors, office politics and the paperwork that are always piling up so high, when nobody cares about your welfare?
If tml, i am gone from this world, the company will still move on. Its a fact.
So why bother?
And sometimes, the hardwork and all the effort that i put in, never gets recognized.
I feel so unappreciated at times!!
Even the relationship with people, a simple misunderstanding or a small mistake on ur part can lead to this friendship bond being broken or weaken, everything good in the past is simple erased just like that. Its the relationship that i cherish so much with these people that weak and vulnerable?
Rumors and Preception is also another scary thing. Is avoiding the best way??

Its really a bitchy, messy and complicated world. It is!!

Luckily there is still ndp rehearsals, distract mi a bit.
I tell u this year's NDP is gonna be a blast.
Last time the CR2 u guys watch really nothing lor.
With the lightings, lazer, water effects, fire effects and fireworks!!!!
The complete show is gonna be so touching!!!
Be sure to catch the whole parade on National Day on TV!!!

Well another video of my my favourite NDP songs,
Tanya Chua's Where I Belong
Stefanie Sun's One United People
Kaira Gong's My Island Home
Enjoy!!!


Suggestion:
Wenya to usher in the Nation's Bdae can u put some NDP songs as our blog song!!!
Thanks!!!

P.S:~ Thanks to Xinying and Wenya, i gotta be a judge for this year's Star Awards. Haha. So excited. Zhui Xing this year very busy hor, involved in 2 big event, NDP and Star Awards!!!

Xian Hao